New York, New York
I feel like I have to tell you something. Its not bad. It’s probably not good given that you’re engaged. I’m so happy for you and you seem to really love her. Really. I mean that. It’s just being away in Galway brought back all these feelings that I had for you seven years ago. It’s crazy. I know. I kept seeing all these guys that looked like you, it was kind of scary. Anyways, I almost told you all this on Facebook but I can’t. I know thats silly and that there is nothing I can’t tell you but you are with her. I take comfort in that you really care for her and would do anything for her. I saw this picture of the two of you in Spain, you two need to stop being adorable. Maybe I should tell you, it might give me some closure and it will only make us better friends. Right? I hope so.
Ron Burgundy: [shouting] She… Sh… It’s terrible. She has beautiful eyes, and her hair smells like cinnamon.
You know what the worst part about all this is? It’s the fact that he has to be all final. He can’t take a second to actually be my friend and talk to me about this. Nope. Was it so bad that I had to tell him how I’ve been feeling? Really? I mean I know its shocking and not something he ever thought he would have to hear again. But their feelings. Feelings don’t have a schedule. Feelings just come like waves in the ocean. Crashing against the rocks. And the water is cold at first and your body gets a jolt from the surprise from the water. Thats my emotions. And I can’t keep them inside. I have to let them out or else I’ll burst.
So I had this crazy thought last night. I was thinking that we could write letters to each other for a year. I know its quite mad. I know how english of me to say such things like “quite mad”. haha. Anyways, I thought it would be cool since its been so long since we’ve properly talked, might give us a chance to catch up. I know we have Facebook for that but I know how much you liked my letters when we were at camp. What do you think? Do you like it the idea? You being one of the two of us…that sounds weird doesn’t it.
**This is a story about two people who met seven years ago. Audrey is a successful teacher in NYC. Liam is a manager at a club in England. Audrey recently went on vacation to Ireland. Being there she couldn’t get over the scenery and the music and food of course. Walking around the streets of Galway, she keeps getting reminded of Liam. Her feelings for him come rushing back. Should she tell him? The problem: Liam is engaged. Audrey is happy for him. Struggling with her feelings she contemplates whether to tell him or not. Audrey decides to write unsent letters to him. Like a diary….**
“you’re the kind of reckless that should’ve send me runnin’” -taylor swift “sparks fly”
It all started so quickly. Like a firework show. Where you see so many colors, the brightest colors you’ve ever seen. And you’re emotions are all over the place. Its magical and dangerous at the same time. You’re not sure if you should feel this way but you’re also sure that you should. And than just like that. It ends. Without an explanation. But over time you come to a common ground. Peace. Serenity. Holy ground. But than it all comes rushing back to you. Like being hit by a bus. BAM! All the memories and feelings, a rollercoaster of a ride that you play over and over again in you’re mind. The good, the bad, even the ugly parts. But you wouldn’t change any of it. Because thats what love is. Thats my definition of love. Pure and simple.
Remember when we used to write letters to each other at camp? Thought it would be a cool idea to start that up again. Great idea huh? Yeah. So its my last night in Dublin and I was about to go to bed when inspiration struck and I just had to write you. I hope that makes sense. Anyways, I love it here. The foods delicious, the beer is wonderful. Well you know this but yeah. I know I still have to come to England hopefully sometime soon. So you’re engaged now? Thats crazy. Sarah seems really cool. Would love to meet her. When I come to Newcastle, promise I will this time. I’m not sure why I didn’t go for new years. No I do, it was money and also I had no one to go with me. I mean I guess Kelly would’ve come with but I don’t know.It was a long time ago. Onward and upward. Do you still have those letters I wrote you all those years ago? I’d love to go through those with you, I really hope they weren’t soppy. haha. I hope this letter reaches you and makes you smile. Cause thats good behavior. See what I did there? Yeah, I hope you giggled,you did. =]